Veering Left

I wrote this starting as advice given to a good friend of mine. But then I reread it and found that it applies to more situations that maybe I meant it to. So I've altered it slightly, but this came out pretty fast. It is both broad and specific in areas, maybe it will apply to your life, maybe it won't. But if it reaches one person, I suppose then it serves its purpose. Hope it is a good intro to a new start of writing frequently in this blog:

It sounds like you feel as if you have no handle on what is going on in your life. However, you are analyzing your life and how you fit within it by making arguments both ways, and it truly seems like you have a better handle on this then most do.

You are feeling both content and discontent. Stable and Instable. Satisfied and undoubtedly craving more. In other words, you are getting an influx of contrasting emotions, which I suppose is part of the human experience. But just remember, that even with all of this confusion that you are feeling, you have to know that you need both sides of the issue to really appreciate how you feel on the issue. You need the sour if you ever are going to truly appreciate the sweet.

It seems like people often come out and state things in order to make things clear to themselves, as well as to you. It may seem like they have a better handle on what they feel, but you never know what the truth is for either party involved, until people are truly honest with each other. And as Billy Joel says, "Honesty is such a lonely word, everyone is so untrue." Although he states this, it is actually a matter of observation, which is actually really depressing. Why has being honest grown vintage. Why are lies often more preferable to the truth? Why can't we just tell the truth, no matter the cost? The cost is never as draining or hurtful as we usually expect it to be. And in the end, we feel better when we are completely honest with our feelings, rather than covering it up with white lies.

This is a sideline, but what is a white lie anyway? What distinguishes it from a black lie? Is there certain criteria that a lie has to meet in order to be labeled with a color? And don't white lies always lead to more lies? Again, honesty, but I digress.

You never know what is going on in the minds of others, but chances are if you are confused, your confusion is not unwarranted. Confusion breeds from confusion. You never will truly know why people act the way they do, and then again, you may never truly want to know. But we will see where and how this develops. So for now all you can really do is just vibe. just cherish the fact that you do have confusion. But do not dwell upon it. Worrying will get you nowhere in the end. Thinking helps, but only to a certain extent. You never know if you will remain friends for now, in order to build a foundation for a stronger friendship or something beyond in the future.

The future is relative, it really isn't that far away. Perhaps life is always a bit confusing, but you can't tear your hair out over it. You have every right to want as much from people as they are taking from you in ways that they may or may not realize. We always want reciprocity. Don't beat yourself up over desiring one of the main drives that we all experience. No one likes to feel slighted. No one wants to love anyone more than they love them. But our minds convince us that this happens quite a bit more often than it actually does.

Just breathe. Just let it be.

Don't worry about a thing, because everything is going to be alright and will work out in the end.

Just breathe.